Goals and decisions
Apr. 28th, 2008 08:56 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
trelobitaI picked up a pencil for the first time in months the other day and was not too pleased with what came out of it. My initial reaction was something along the lines of "Gah! I don't know how to draw anymore! That's it for me!" After that, common sense reminded me that after months of not drawing, of COURSE I'm going to suck. I'm out of practice!
Drawing was once my biggest passion in life, the thing I enjoyed doing more than ANYTHING, and everything I drew turned out the way I wanted it to. Since I've been working full time and going to college to learn a trade that actually ISN'T going to be my life's work for about four years now, I've let drawing slip away from me. It doesn't make sense to me that I would just stop doing something I love so much, but I have, and I'm suffering for it now.
Yesterday I made a pledge to myself. I bought a little moleskine notebook. Every single day, I intend to draw one person. Male, female, adult, child, cartoony, realistic. Everyday, I'm going to do something different. I'm going to refuse to miss a day, even if it means scrawling down a stick figure before I go to bed! The only thing stopping me from getting back into it is me.
I just can't get by in life without the ability to put the images in my head to paper. On the upside, I've gotten a bit better with my writing, and I will need both skills if ever I am to achieve fame as the first reknown female American adult animation director. If Ralph Bakshi is all I have to live up to, I think I might have something of a chance. XD If nothing else, I want to create a series of elegantly smutty graphic novels a la Alan Moore. I'll get me out there somehow!!!
Hmph. Perhaps I'd be more driven if I was unhappy. Most of the talented people I know are the tortured artist types. Surely there are happy artist types as well.....
Drawing was once my biggest passion in life, the thing I enjoyed doing more than ANYTHING, and everything I drew turned out the way I wanted it to. Since I've been working full time and going to college to learn a trade that actually ISN'T going to be my life's work for about four years now, I've let drawing slip away from me. It doesn't make sense to me that I would just stop doing something I love so much, but I have, and I'm suffering for it now.
Yesterday I made a pledge to myself. I bought a little moleskine notebook. Every single day, I intend to draw one person. Male, female, adult, child, cartoony, realistic. Everyday, I'm going to do something different. I'm going to refuse to miss a day, even if it means scrawling down a stick figure before I go to bed! The only thing stopping me from getting back into it is me.
I just can't get by in life without the ability to put the images in my head to paper. On the upside, I've gotten a bit better with my writing, and I will need both skills if ever I am to achieve fame as the first reknown female American adult animation director. If Ralph Bakshi is all I have to live up to, I think I might have something of a chance. XD If nothing else, I want to create a series of elegantly smutty graphic novels a la Alan Moore. I'll get me out there somehow!!!
Hmph. Perhaps I'd be more driven if I was unhappy. Most of the talented people I know are the tortured artist types. Surely there are happy artist types as well.....
